Transformation Project Proposal!

So, my original idea for the transformation project was to do a watercolor of a horizon on canvas. In every cloud I would cut out parts of my journal and glue them onto the clouds. I found this one interesting and important, because I like to paint and I think a horizon is a kind of turning point.  Painting is the way I feel most creative. I thought this was a great idea and it was my plan by week two. However last week I came up with something I love and want to do instead. Here’s one of my paintings.

My second idea would be to make a board game type poster (almost like the main candy crush menu) that encounters the things I have overcome this quarter and the things I have written about. I think this a cool interactive idea. It also was the key to me realizing that I want my project to be 3D and interactive. I am not really leaning towards this idea because I feel like it would never be as cool as my mind makes it and it would frustrate me over time.

My third and favorite idea that I plan on doing is what I call a thought bubble diorama. I will take balls that look like bubbles and put sections of my journaling in them I feel journaling is a way to commemorate and immortalize those fleeting feelings. It helps with reflecting on the places our minds go to sometimes. In this idea I will use a bar or hanger and place the ten bubble balls at different heights with quotes from my journal in them. I will use fishing line to hang it. I love this idea. It had every aspect I wanted and I love that it focuses on the emotions like the readings have touched on. I am pretty 100% that this is what I’m doing so I have gone and got my supplies. This is a quick preview.

 All in all, I am really excited about this project! I was dreading it when we were talking about it at the beginning and now I am so excited to see this project come to life.  It’s motivating me so much to not stop my writings! I hope to get as many good emotions in the journal for this project. It’s also helping me be more authentic in my writing. I also have a hard time being transparent and this project focusing on my emotions is a great time for me to learn more about myself! I am ready to get started this week and weekend!   

   

Readings 8/11

I understand how Goldberg described how she forced herself to write. I came up with a way to force myself also! I just force myself before bed on Sunday, Tuesday and Thursday nights before bed to write no less then 3 pages. Her tricks work but more in her contexts of teaching. I rarely feel a need to edit my writing. Even if I’m arguing with myself I let it play out. I think it helps me understand where the darker parts of my mind exist. This week I implemented a lot of things she spoke about. I wrote a story about my night Sunday from my perspective and by reading it I was able to put my self in the other persons shoes. I’ve found the times in class we got to out and write in groups talking has helped me write more efficiently.  It may not be the exact topic we are told to write about but it helps me be more genuine with myself. I wrote 5 pages Sunday night when I normally write about a page. I really like Rubin’s one sentence journal idea. Getting a small journal even just to track feelings might help with more self-work. I used to struggle with the idea of death and I too have read some blogs from people dying. It is a really interesting thing to do. It changed a lot of my perspectives and fears on death. It definitely made me live more in the moment. I do think it is important to teach students how to learn and study. Had I know what I know now as a college student about how I learn and how to study I could have gotten better grades the C’s and D’s.  I am all about placement and professionalism. I don’t know that had I had a teacher calling me out the way Last Lecture author did his students, that it would have worked or come across so well. I might have a little too much ego for that. I think complaining can be annoying, but I do believe it can help release emotions that couldn’t be spoken about. For a writer who hates complaining he complained about people complaining a lot. Not really sure this is someone I would enjoy readings from. I think complaining is actually a way to become more productive and it helps you find things to write about. Not sure he’s a professor that would blend with me well. Well maybe if I knew Disney World was at the end of it!

Reading 8/4

This weeks reading was really interesting to me. I liked that I brought up ethics. I am taking an ethics class this quarter and it is really interesting to me. Enthographic narratives are really interesting to me. I feel like without them we would never really be able to know what people in the past are thinking. I’m really interested in anthropology and history. It allows us to see what people from all sides are thinking. My goal is to become a criminal profiler and reading journals or dairies of like Nazis or killers always fascinate me.  I like the idea of studying Nazi journals and learning the emotion struggles and ethical struggles some of them must have had. At what point did they start villianizing and detaching from Jewish people to commit these crimes. I like to know how long it takes people to start using defense mechanisms to commit crimes. I like how the Kahn readings really talked about turning journals into a scientific observation! I really like the steps they explained in going over journal studying. I think it raises a lot of ethical questions especially when the writers are deceased. I love that it’s a way of learning from other people’s experiences. I feel like I already did some of this in my compare and contrast essay. I focused on times in history so this idea makes sense to me.  I think using enthographs to reflect and learn from others and our mistakes is a really smart way to use them to impact our lives!  I hated Kawulich reading! I understood it because it was very similar to the other reading however it was written worse. It was difficult to keep my focus!! It wasn’t as easy to read and the format was not very reader friendly! It had a lot more information I think but it was so poorly written that it was hard for me to connect to like the Kahn reading.