Reaction to reading one

I liked the first readings a lot. I really liked the fact that the Writing Down The Bones, book was easy to read. I missed the first class so I was a little lost on how to set this up. The first introduction to the book was great. I have a hard time letting go and really speaking my mind so I’m glad to hear that I am not the only one! I’m a little intimidated to allow myself to go past the deep thoughts and going into the deep feelings. The book says, “don’t stop the tear; go through the truth.” This sounds pretty terrifying to me. I hate feeling vulnerable and I know this will be a struggle and challenge in this class. I am really not concerned on my ability to write. I just have so many thoughts and I am used to writing papers for a class not my full opinion. The book speaks about allowing you the space to write the worst junk in the world. I don’t think I am very good at doing that! I am not happy when I can control things. Part of that is my nervousness about being too transparent. When doing the personal journaling this week I focused on, “this moment.” The author spoke about staying present and I have really tired to do that. I connected with the part of the reading that talked about being subject to self-hate, insecurities, and fear. We have all felt this from time to time. I am glad to have gotten past that for now, but I learned a lot from it! I really liked the writing tips on page 22/23. I think they will be really helpful when I get brain blocks. I think discipline will be the hardest thing for me to get through! I tend to put things off till the last minute. Clearly! Procrastination is something that I do too much, as I have grown it has gotten a lot better. I think I will grow a lot as a person through the challenges this class will let me face. The idea that fighting the resistance will be tough, but like the book said, “ Finally, one just has to shut up, sit down, and write.” I honestly didn’t want to stop reading this book! When the book spoke about taking moments to breathe with the writing where you allow the writing to take a pause and letting your writings take a breath, is very important. This section also talked about the balance of not shutting out the outside world that allows us to connect to the writing. Balance in anything is hard, but it is well worth it!